Monday, February 20, 2012

Welcome to my life

So I have decided to start up another blog.. why it's just another thing to do in my life, right? However, recently I've discovered I need time to myself and to write out my feelings and journeys through life now that I have literally so much going on being a new mom, a wife, and a somewhat business owner.

So let me take you through my journey, my journey as a new mom, a not so new housewife.. which I have been now for almost two years and what I call a somewhat business owner now. I call it somewhat because right now my number one priority is taking care of my baby girl and putting the business on hold until we establish life together as a family. Before Chloe came into my life, my business Kaliah Designs, was my life. It was my baby and it was motivation to get through most days being a housewife.

I lost my job back in 2009 and since then I have been a housewife and business owner. Why? Well to be honest, I didn't want to go back to work. I was not happy working in advertising and marketing which is what I went to college for. I liked doing certain aspects of the job but overall I was not happy. I went to college because back then it was the right thing to do, there was no such thing as just finding a great guy, getting married and tending to the house and raising kids. In my mind, that was all I wanted to do. I told most people growing up all I wanted to be was a wife and mom. Stay home raise a family and be happy. Sounds great to me!

Well I never thought I was going to have it that way until I lost my job. I lost my job 6 months before I was going to get married to my husband and in the worst economy since the depression. Why did I lose my job? It wasn't because of my performance because I kicked ass, I was told daily by my co-workers, it was because the company didn't have enough clients and I just wasn't needed anymore. So I was left with a college degree ( a freaking piece of paper if you ask me) and a few years of experience working in the field. I tried to look for work else where but nothing would come through.

I decided to focus my energies on planning my wedding because I love planning events. Hosting parties and making sure people have a good time is my blood so I figured I was going to throw the best wedding people have been to in a long time. Did I accomplish it? I sure as hell did.. I still get people saying that our wedding was by the far the best one they been to. How in the hell did I mange to do that with a limited income? Just get creative and hire the best of the best in certain areas? I had already booked one of the newest halls in town so that part was already booked before losing my job but after that everything else was just about focusing on what I needed to focus on.. Music is what makes a party so I made sure to hire a DJ that would be sure to get the people on the dance floor having a good time and I sure as hell did that.

So after my wedding I was left with a thought of either I gotta find a job now or I could do something else like be my own boss. So begin's Kaliah Designs the birth of my first love my jewelry and hair accessories business. I had the determination, the skills and the creative to make this come alive and so I did and I've never looked back. I believe I have been blessed to have been able to find this outlet in my life because I never in my wildest dreams thought of having my own company. It wasn't something I sat around dreaming about like my husband did with his business, hell he never thought I would do something like this.

Soo.. am I happy with being what many may call me now a mompreneur? That I can not answer right now because I havent been able to find the balance of being a mom and a business owner. My daughter, Chloe is still only 6 and half weeks old and we are still trying to figure her out. For the most part she has been such a perfect little baby. I really have no complaints. She sleeps good for me and she is a happy little baby, sure she has her moments like most babies do but she is just perfect.

Now balancing being a mom and a housewife, well that is a whole nother story. That I am still having a hard time doing. It's hard to take care of a baby basically by myself because I chose to breastfeed her and take care of my house. Now I am sure your thinking where is your husband? Well he is working. He works 40+ hours a week at his day job and his night job is his business in which he spends another few hours working on when he is home during the week and on the weekend, he basically works all day. Why? Well he is trying so hard to get his business off the ground with his partner. My husband, Scott is trying so hard to provide the best life for our family. Right now, life is pretty tough because we are down to one solid income and lets face it, babies are super expensive and we've given up so much for me to stay home and raise Chloe now. So I sit back and let Scott do whatever he can to get our family in the position we want to be financially. Sometimes I feel like a single parent, and I try to get Scott involved in as much as I can. I just need to come up with a plan of action to get him more involved and not miss out on Chloe's early years because he's been so busy working.. babies are babies once and building a business can happen at any time, I just hope he realizes that before it's too late.

Well Chloe needs mommy now so gotta run :)

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